Wednesday, November 10, 2004
currently reporting life from the school comp lab 1. hehs
came to school by cab. stupid driver forgot to on the meter thingy. hehs. so i paid about 1 to 2 bucks.
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10:07 AM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
aloha. just scanned a few fotos ta put in friendster. phew! using dad's comp now. so blogger has prob oni in my comp huh. damn it!
feelin so stressed now. especially when sec 1 orientation is drawing nearer by the day. sighx. in charge of programme and my poor partner miaohui jus went fer back surgery. guess she can't help me till 3 wks more. sighx. i bet my 2 assistants dunno tt they exist at all. bleah. but can't wait for sentosa camp! 22-24th nov. tink it'll b super fun. especially when i'm goin wif all the other crazy prefects. hehex. smiles away...
got back report card. failed one subj oni. geog. sigh. oni got one A1 n tt is MEP. sigh. but will make sure by next yr term 1. gonna do my best le. jia you! lolx. hahakx. ok ok. tink i'm getting hyper cos i can't wait for 11 more days. dun ask y. u shud all knoe. u all better noe. muahah. can't wait. argh! haven't been for choir for a long time. pulled myself out fm the musical alr. tink it's rather a waste of time. and it'll be quite a big event. so i dun wanna lose face at the end of the day. *giggles*
will b quite busy rushing wif string sec4 farewell prezzies. n oso doing the directory. gonna b lotsa work n hopfully i can finish it b4 leaving for camp. or else... ...
guess i wun b able ta make it for chalet anymore. string n prefect. cos going for holiday. *wee weet* most prob hawaii n LA. yes! disneyland once again. hoorays! can't wait ta get a new tan. cos the one wif choir at sentosa din work. hopefully this camp will give me another tan yet again!
shit. can't find my bloody specs. shall b blind foreva. darius u betta follow me ta market tmr. and it's not fer a funeral ass! anw, gotta go tok to future godmother n lizzy n mark alr. tink they're kinda bored wif mum. muahaha. tmr have prac at 1230. sighx. prac's getting boring cos i can't seem ta find a click. anw, a reminder yet again. 11 more days!!!
for good times, and bad times, i'll b on ur side foreva more... thanks for being there... i miss you... ... pls say u still love me...
|| melly-o ||lost in [[fairytale]]-land
9:14 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
finally i'm down ta bloggin again. aft being fevered for the past 4-5days, i tink i lost most of my brain cells or they evaporated. or rather disappeared through the boiling process!! geesh. i tink it all started out on bloody tuesday.
on that very "fateful" tuesday mornin, i squirmed out of bed n travelled all the way ta bishan. for wad? isa's voice lesson! (tt gurl betta b honoured!) i waited at void deck 4 her ta arrive somemore. cheeh. *grinds teeth* oh! her teacher asked me if i wanted ta b some accompanist for a recital nxt april. hmmm. i want! but must see if they're givin me money first lar! hehex. then i went ta eat wif isa, chyi, and wen at cartel. yum. shud realli try the baked macaroni. it was mmm mmm. fabulous! then wen n i went ta spotlight ta see the stuffs for sec 4 farewell n her stuffs. met sean n we went for a talk n coffee n starbucks. walked ta church aft tt ta pray. but the chapel was used for charismatic i tink.. so we prayed at 2nd level. suppose ta atten i tok. but i was feelin sick so we went ta eat. then he walked me back. gee. i was alr feeling terrible. had flu. but had ta finish typin my minutes cos gotta pass ta HP next day. aiyo... this is when it all started.
[wednesday - 6.15am] FEVER!!! "mummy i realli can't go sch alr.. i can't even stand up!" wad's ur temp? omg! 38.5? pop 2 panadol n slp. went ta doc at bout 9am. feelin slightly betta. went ta slp again.
[thur - 4.00am] got up ta go toilet. mum heard me n woke up. i was so bloody giddy n quickly walk ta bed n lie down. then she brought me ta dining area ask me ta take med. then i walked ta kitchen wanted ta wash hands. SUDDENLY! boom! i heard this loud thud. trust me. it was loud enuf for me ta hear! n i suddenly landed on my head n back. it was so bloody scary!!! i opened my eyes... y m i here? quickly turned off tap. felt like puking. but went toilet had diarrhoa instead! then went ta slp. fri was betta. then sat..
[sat] aiyo. temp was 38.5 again.!.! so went ta changi hospital. temp rose ta 39.2. saw the doc, took blood test TWICE. the first time the bloody blood refuse ta budge! then took blood pressure... blah blah. took 2 panadol n went observation room ta slp. pls lor. so noisy how ta slp. bloody hell. but the nurses were so so nice. hahaks. then went home eat sleep lor. sigh..
so tired aft bloggin. shall talk to my bitching fren caroline.. woo hoo!!!
kisses for everyone.. especialy YOU. *winks* muack muacks. (remember ta read entry below this one)
|| melly-o ||lost in [[fairytale]]-land
1:15 PM
If you see me walking the road with someone else...It's not because I like his accompany...Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me...
If you hear me talking about him all the time... Its not because he pleases me... Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat...
If you feel me falling with someone new...Its not because I love him...But because you're not there to catch me fall...
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere...I too don't know where the road is going...Are we gonna cross each other's path...Or just completely turn around...?
Will we just let go of what we had...Or go to the place where love is bound...
Don't let me walk with him...It's you I want to walk with..
Don't let me talk of him...it's you I want to talk with...
Don't let me fall for him...It's you I want to fall in love with...
~got this from my horny nuts' blog!!it's so so meaningful n nice..hahakx. sorry nut. i wanna steal it!~
|| melly-o ||lost in [[fairytale]]-land
1:11 PM
Monday, October 25, 2004
there's no need for further elaboration anymore. i just couldn't stop crying yesterdae. lucky there was mum there ta guide me along. i racked up the past and the present. everything has been spoken alr. i feel a lil better after that. well, all the lies i kept are alr out. how "she" treated me and all has been told to my mum.i lied that i broke up with my bf when i actualli did not. i lied that i did not stick to him for the past 2 months. i lied that wad he did to me never happened but it actualli did. but i did the right thing by breaking up with him and will never regret it. i stood up for my own right and i did what i was suppose to do. i'll never forget how u treated me and all that u did with me.
you cheated me? i dun blame you. life is definitely filled with ppl like you. i thank you for doing this to me. i take it as another obstacle that i have to cross over once again. i'll find strength in it and will benefit from it. i pray ta god tt he'll help me find the way out of it and help me ta be strong. i know that one day i'll definitely succeed n tt i wun have ta suffer so much.
right now. i layed out my plans and decisions. no one's gonna stop me fm doing wad i'm gonna do. call me a bitch, say wad u like, despise me, it doesn't matter. cos i knoe that i dun need u to be there for me. when i've other frens who have me in their hearts. i know this doesn't matter anymore. but i can't stop crying whenever i tink of it. to think that u were so nice to me, but now knowing that all u wanted was to toy with my feelings. noone can mend that broken heart in me now.
my strengths are weak and my weakness are my strengths. dun forget how much i put in for you. just you. all the times i sacrificed for you. and only you. and to be treated like this is uncalled for. the cut in my heart and the pain i'm suffering can never heal. u'll regret it. i know u will. i'm gonna make sure that i'll b the one benifitting from all these. i'll find my way again. my way to another life... ... another world... ... where i can live in the hands of god... ...
|| melly-o ||lost in [[fairytale]]-land
7:57 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
jux returned fm church choir prac. was in quite a bad mood jux now cos of some ppl who reali put me off. but at least i still have bernie,jilly n daphy ta crap wif me n dat covered it up a lot! thanks dearies!have not been too well for at least the past 2 days. ppl keep asking me wad's wrong wif me. owell. i've told you alr. now i jux gotta live my life well. at least for this moment. until the day when i reali can't take it anymore. poof!
some one is currently ticking me off. she's such a bitch. can't stand her! she's acting so fakely, trying ta atract him and he falls for it easily. how i wish tt he gets blind. *evil grins* well i can't take it but jux love bitching bout them. since lotsa ppl know bout it alr. it's true. why shud i fuck care bout them ryte? anw. they're jux a pain in my ass. jux look at him. confused n all. jux look at her. trying to ACT pretty and nice. hey gurl, u'll not goin a
anywhere. jux accept the fact that ur personality is a pile of shit.
but i can't be bothered. i jux love venting my anger on them. it feels good. had diarrhoa, so i'm at home when i'm suppose ta be at meeting at pp. sorry cui fang. but my shit is uncontrolable!!! yikes! jux came out fm toilet somemore. hahas.
had lotsa things goin on in church. shan't mention bout it. cos i'm basically quite neutral bout everythin that's happening. relationships and stuff. but i jux wanna say that.. ppl shouldn't be so despo. kz? accept facts and leave it! but i shall jux continue bitching bout XX's sister. so cool ryte. haha. anw. gtg. bitching bout some ppl now. to deary: u better get better for tmr's inter-class netball! take care gurl!~
gloria forced me ta do this! I LOVE MY HORNY NUT! wee wee weet. hahakx. yes gurl. u're my precious!
muacks muacks muacks!
|| melly-o ||lost in [[fairytale]]-land
5:40 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
i've got a friend. and this is her story.. let's call her XX
XX lives a terrible life now. she had many difficulties getting in2 a relationship. and even after being attached for a few months, she has many problems. her parents never allowed relationships at this age of 14. so as to concentrate in her studies, she broke up with her bf. leaving both of them stead-less for awhile.
But jux recently, XX told me that she has been facing problems with her ex-bf (mentioned earlier) . XX told me that her ex-bf was getting very close to her very own sister. and that she was quite sure he liked her and might want to start a relationship with her any moment. She also told me that she wasn't pissed at all. but felt very cheated. cheated of her feelings by him. my conclusion draws here...
XX's ex-bf in the first place shudnt be getting close to XX's sister. b'cos in the first place, who would ever wanna get close or even worse, start a relationship with ur ex-gf's sibling. nuts! and XX's sister is even worse! she shudn't be going wif her sister's ex-bf ryte? omg! this is nuts nuts! her sister is juz like a second hand good sia.
anw. very tired of toking bout this matter. a lot of ppl keep telling me bout this story oso. haix. hey XX if you're reading this. muz cheer up k?
to XX's ex-bf! asshole you! i'm sure XX will never forgive you. you cheated her feelings and she's gonna make sure you will never stay long in your relationship with her sister. dun worry XX, i'll fight for you oso k?
ppl you will noe who is XX. most of you who read my blog will knoe who she is la. if u wanna noe juz ask me k? have to keep this matter kinda private. XX doesn't wan me ta tell out her name anw.
you're a bloody asshole. good for nothing. if you eva come and piss me as well. u watch out. i'm never gonna let u go scot-free. bloody bastard!
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9:09 PM
update on results as usual. today was horrible. ultimate! here we go!!!
E MATH - 59/100 C5 (wtf. i'm suppose to get one more mark to get a freakin B4!)
HISTORY (ELECTIVE) - 42/100 E8 (it's usual. sighx)
PHYSICS - 34/100 F9 (expect the unexpected. owell. wtf la)
bloody pissed wif physics. though it was difficult and oni 7 ppl fm my class passed. it's not the point! i've been getting A1s and B3s for terms 1-3. wth. i tink i'm jux gonna jump down the building. sighx. life sucks. life of a poor music niche pupil here sucks. melody your L1R5 is 27. wake up. wad's wrong wif you! can i jux kill myself? i hate it!!
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8:58 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
shit la. got back 4 papers today. update on results!!!
CHINESE - 56/100 C5 (amazing to pass chinese. wee weet!)
A MATH - 57.5 / 100 C5 (freak. could hv done much much better!!!)
GEOG - 45.2 / 100 D7 (wtf. you're so dead melody.. tsk tsk)
MEP - 80.7 / 100 A1 (this is the ONLY A1 you're gonna get!)
so so happy for MEP. not tt i got the highest! but i got highest for both practicals!!! hehe. got 50/50 for piano (1st instrument). first time leh!!! oh oh. but violin (2nd instru) din do tt well. got 44/50 oni. sigh. expected ta get much much better though! sighx. but overall ok larh. sighz.
seriously gonna die for L1R5 this term. so thought of counting overall whole year points. hehe. cos E math and physics confirm did better beginning of yr. owell. sighx.
jux finished typing the new string directory. so bloody confused wif the tables and all. but it looks so great. and i'm so proud of my work. *grins* hehe. think will go frame it up. but die larh. next yr got new intake of sec 1s. then gotta redo? shall ask ms lau then.
today was practically running about. meetings after checking scripts. checking scripts after meetings. freakin busy sia. damn tired oso. so hungry but gotta wait for dada ta come home and eat wif me. hehe. watch 9pm chi show!!! it's so bitchy and bimbotic. that's so so MELODY!!! watch me and watch the show same sia. and i'm so pissed off wif some ppl. bloody asshole. dun even bother about me anymore. dun ask me for help anymore!
muack muacks. not to the asshole though. *evil laughters*
P.S dear sister. i'm not scary ok. and isabel too. i'm juz dao. i knoe...
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9:44 PM
